Hello Again

Hello again World and let me start by introducing someone who I have lost for quite some time, me.

I'm back. I'm feeling like myself. Gw ngerasa kalo ini waktunya buat gw jadi diri gw sendiri. I always thought that it is cool to talk and write in all english, tapi ternyata tuh nga juga. I like my indo-english language that I mixed. Meskipun emang nge-bingungin, but what else can be done?

For quite some times now, I feel that things have changed. Scores are getting lower, I'm getting lazier, and life goes on. Even friendship change. and I feel like I've been wasting some of my time just by thinking too much. Well, gw tipe orang yang emang bakal pusing dengan diri sendiri cause I let myslef think too much, even hal-hal yang nga penting pun bakal gw pikirin. Funny and dumb, all at the same time.

But it's time to change. It's time to bring on the SCREW YOU attitude and just live my life. Though honestly, kayaknya nga bakal mempan-mempan banget, at least I try, right? 

Singkat cerita, gw menemukan beberapa pictures yang relate sama gw from Tumblr and I wanna share it here with you guys! 

This is really INTERESTING STORY. check it out later with (may be the title, FRIENDS FOREVER?)

There's a story behind this, I'll share it some other time.

There are some other pictures that I find relevant to me, but I'll safe it for another time. (YES, gw emang lagi males banget. hahhaa)

but before that, this is something I wanna share last with you all :D

We live only once, but if we live it right once is enough. 

 

 

 

Best regards from the new me, 

Audrey

xoxoxo

Something that I learn

Hari ini bener-bener berbeda dari hari lainnya karena jujur aja gw belajar begitu banyak hal yang bener-bener wow. Untuk pertama gw sadar kalo it's okay to be wrong. Selama ini sering banget gw takut ngelakuin kesalahan. Takut komentar orang-orang.

Tapi, at the end of the day, it's about me doing what I want, learning things my way. 

Salah itu wajar dan buat salah bukan sesuatu yang memalukan. Justru kita bisa belajar lebih banyak dari kesalahan itu.Kita semua mulai dari dasar. Kita mau ngejar mimpi juga semua mulai dari yang paling bawah and when you're starting from zero, you've got nothing to lose. Nga ada yang harus di takutin. Namanya juga baru nyoba, kalo nga bisa ya coba yang lain. 

In the end, it's about seizing the moment; carpe diem. It's about taking chances, and breaking free from all the fears. It's about living in this life. 

Am still learning, 

Aodre

And So It Started With an End

I guess I have to make the story straight, and for that  let me begin by telling you the end...

I am changing the scene, going away from the place that I grew, developed and learned for the last four years. Why? Simply because I'm starting to feel like I am trap in a place, locked up in a dungeon to say the least. May be something like what Rapunzel feels in the tower: happy to be alive but then again sad to be stuck. Not to say that my school is bad, it's just that one feeling  that you have when you feel that there's something more out there. Cliche? Yes...

To be honest, moving school is a long term plan that I have been planning about ever since, say two years ago, but I don't regret not moving until now. This year has been a roller coaster ride. I've been doing things that is completely out of my mind. I'm doing things that I thought will be impossible. I've done lots of crazy things and the best part is my friends are right next to me when it all happen, taking part in each whatever madness we're about to do. My last year was amazing. Nothing more to add to that. It was simply...beautiful.

I have never actually say goodbye to my friends partly because I know this is not a final goodbye, but it is also because I don't want to say goodbye to them. Saying goodbye means forgetting and forgetting turns everything into memories, and sometime memories are lost with time. I don't want to forget about my friends and everything that we do. I don't want my friendship to become nothing but a memory. Because without them, my life would just be a blank piece of paper wanting to be colored. 

June 18, 2011. I began to read my year book comments and the Book. I was reading them in my car and that's when I stop and I cry. I cry because I realize that it all has end. I cry because I don't want all of this to be over. I cry simple because I've said goodbye. I know that that will not be the last time I met with my friends, but realizing that I've said goodbye and not knowing when will we meet again, saddens me. So I cried.

I guess the reason why I am writing this is to say a proper goodbye. 

"Oh clock, just stop for a second
I still see the kid inside the mirror
I'm all grown up, moving on
life feels short, it used to feel long
the flying birds, reminds me
that sometimes we have to go

Goodbye, don't change a thing
I promise, I'll be back someday
I'll miss you, please don't fade away
don't fade away."

-David Choi, Don't Fade Away

Dear friends,

Know that I'm not letting go of anything, of any memories or any friendship. Please know that it has been my greatest honor and privilege to be your friend, and I shall never forget about you and I shall forever be grateful for a friend like you to be in my life.

Till we meet again,

Hugs and kisses,

ALJ