Late Night Post...well almost midnight

Hey there readers, imaginary and non-imaginary

So here I am all alone in the middle of the night trying to patiently wait for a movie buffer, which takes ages. fckyouslowinternet. And what better way to spent it than create a rambling right here, right now.

Let me describe the scenery at the moment:
The night was cold and it was lonely. The other souls that live in this house is basically asleep unlike me. God help my sleepless soul. I had my warm milo next to me, sitting in a really comfy chair, and had my hands on the keyboards. I had my cousin's dog, which smells bad because no one is giving him the shower he needed, oh and who is also asleep. However, all this has zero relation as to what I am about to say next.

I miss my sister. and I miss my brother.

Why this sudden feeling? It's because I really do miss them. Long story short, I haven't been living in my home for almost a month now. I've moved from place to place, mostly my cousins house (and don't worry, I'm not homeless) because I am doing a house-sitting. For those of you who do not know what a house-sitting is, it is like baby-sitting, but with a house.

Anywaaaaayyyy,
I have not since them ever since and it just made me realize how I much they actually matters to me. I thank God that this time, I realize that before it is too late. You know how the saying goes: you don't know what you have until it's gone. I'm guilty as well cause there are times when I let the good things go just because I thought that there would be something better for me, but sometimes, you just have to believe that what you have is the best. Sometimes you gotta get rid of that thought that there is something better out there, or I am missing out from the world, or any common non-sense like that.

Sometimes, my dear friend, you have to stop and just appreciate what you have right now.

Pretty deep, don't know how I reach to that point but for what is worth, really do appreciate what you have, especially people who didn't take you for granted.

Adios for now!!
-A

Soulmate and stuff like that

Let me tell you guys what I am currently heads over heels with. And yes, I am perfectly aware that I use the word "you guys" even though I'm pretty sure no one reads this, but for my own pure pleasure, why the hell not.

Anyway, I am currently obsessed with this idea of finding our other half, our soulmate, or call it whatever you like. It is this idea that we are always searching for that someone that would complete us in everyway. Someone who would finish our sentences. Someone who gets our stupid jokes. Someone who can read our expression like they are reading their favorite bed time stories. Someone who is all sense of the word...complete us.

This of course starts with my reading (although it is pretty average, but I am somewhat proud of my achievement). Right now I am reading "Looking for Alaska" by  no other than John Green and I am in love with it. 

Not because it's about a boy who falls in love with a girl. But it's about finding that special someone that could turn your life around. Someone who challenges you to be different. Someone who takes you to the dark side deep enough to show us how to forget about the world and live for a while.

Well there's that and if it is not enough, the music I'm currently listening to also touch these subject. Justin Timberlake's Mirror, Ed Sheeran's Wake Me Up and Kiss Me, the Maine, these four words. God, they are all so fucking amazing and just drive me insane with their music. 

Let me show you what I mean.

Mirror

Cause I don't wanna lose you nowI'm looking right at the other half of meThe vacancy that sat in my heartIs a space that now you holdShow me how to fight for nowAnd I'll tell you, baby, it was easyComing back into you once I figured it outYou were right here all alongIt's like you're my mirrorMy mirror staring back at meI couldn't get any biggerWith anyone else beside of meAnd now it's clear as this promiseThat we're making two reflections into one'Cause it's like you're my mirror

and that's just one out of the many songs.


And then there's Hollywood. What movie am I specifically talking about? Pacific Rim. I mean, it talks about finding that someone who is compatible for you. Someone who match you, in a way that you could work together and have that special bond. I know it sound cheezy but it is the truth.

And honestly right now, I am obsessed with this concept. This idea of finding that someone. I guess that's what we all will search for eventually.  I haven't found mine and I hope he won't be long. 


Hugs and kisses, 
A

Me.

Here's something that I never tell to anyone, but it's time for the truth.

I can travel to any place I want with a blink of an eye. From a crowded room. From the boring classroom. From myself. and From reality.

Call me a wallflower, because may be that's what I am. Someone who sees and knows stuff but never was a part of anything. Sometimes, I got sad over the smallest detail that didn't go right. And most of the time, I think too much of stuff and people that is not important. That's why I am going to commit myself to something. To give it my full attention so that I won't get distracted by my own mind. 

So for those who might wonder who I am, this is yours truly. Weird and awkward, A.

Goodbye 17

Okay, it appears that today will be my last day being 17. I'm still unsure of how I should react. At some point, I wanna scream,  "OH GAWD, I'M 18!!!!" and at some point, I just can't wait to start a new year of my life. (Cliche, no?)

My 17 year of my life has been filled with worries and anxiety, and somehow I wanted that to change. I'm 18 for goodness sake. It's time for me to enjoy my life and there would not be anything that would really worries me, I hope. I'm done with, "I'm not going to be able to go abroad" drama. I'm sick of, "What does my friends think of me? Do they hate me?" and obviously, I should stop underestimating myself. May be it's true. All this time, I've not give myself enough credit for all that I've achieved. No more fear. 

But 17 was not at all bad. 
Why?

at Alyssa's

Jogja with these peopleeee

don't ask

crazy cousin photo-time

who would ever thought, huh?

dinner party

at Jesslyn's

Stupid and crazy moot court team

Because my year as a 17 is pretty AWESOME and these were just part of the story. So here's to the end of a great year of my life and the start of being 18.

XOXO,
-A