Are you tired of feeling like you're always number two? Are you tired of feeling that nothing is ever good enough, that your best is just good? Are you so freaking tired of being compared, even if it was you yourself who compare you with others? Me too, friend. I am tired with all of those but you know what I realize today?
I realize that comparing myself is just shits I made as an excuse to feel bad. Weird-much? Yes, but it is also true. When it comes to comparison, we always feel like we are being bullied. Questions like, "Why do they have to compare me?" or "Can't you just appreciate my effort?" flies around our head every second of those trials. It seems that all those effort and even sacrifices that we made are just a waste if energy and we began to feel bad about it. Soon, we get used to all those comparison that we became immune toward it...or so it seems. Facts: the more we are being compared, the more we doubt about our own capability and slowly but sure, we are going to live our life in doubts.
Truth is I have been living my life in doubt. There was never a second when I really am just happy for who I am. There is always that voice inside my head that told me that I was not good enough. There were whispers in my head that says, "Look at that girl. She has everything a pretty face, a fair hair, a brilliant mind, a loving family. So different from you right?" And worst is when I hear myself saying that may be I am destined to be in the background, being as invisible as I can, that way, I think I'll be happier.
What a crap I think right? It has never been any truer that we all deserve a spotlight of our own. we deserve to be our own superstar. We ROCK in every single way and we should never forget about that. People will never stop comparing us with others but we can stop comparing ourselves. What other says matters so little compare to what we think about us. Today, I make a change. I am standing tall with my chin up, embracing and loving who I am with all my flaws. I will still make better changes in my life, but for what is worth, I will never change who I am inside. Yes, other people might have nicer hair than I do, or even a better life but their life is not mine. And I love mine, with every problem, every dramas, every issue; with everything in it.
The best part: I am never alone. One of the most amazing thing about being a teenager is having all the great best friends in my life to help me and listen to all my ramblings and issues and anger and everything else. If life is a deadly roller coaster, they made the ride worth the fun and worth the time. They'll be the one who will slap me right in the face and bring me back to the truth that I am worth it. Without them, I guess I wouldn't make it this far, and I am forever grateful to have all those people in my life.Happy Friendship Day, Friends.
Your Friend,
A.L.J
