And So It Started With an End

I guess I have to make the story straight, and for that  let me begin by telling you the end...

I am changing the scene, going away from the place that I grew, developed and learned for the last four years. Why? Simply because I'm starting to feel like I am trap in a place, locked up in a dungeon to say the least. May be something like what Rapunzel feels in the tower: happy to be alive but then again sad to be stuck. Not to say that my school is bad, it's just that one feeling  that you have when you feel that there's something more out there. Cliche? Yes...

To be honest, moving school is a long term plan that I have been planning about ever since, say two years ago, but I don't regret not moving until now. This year has been a roller coaster ride. I've been doing things that is completely out of my mind. I'm doing things that I thought will be impossible. I've done lots of crazy things and the best part is my friends are right next to me when it all happen, taking part in each whatever madness we're about to do. My last year was amazing. Nothing more to add to that. It was simply...beautiful.

I have never actually say goodbye to my friends partly because I know this is not a final goodbye, but it is also because I don't want to say goodbye to them. Saying goodbye means forgetting and forgetting turns everything into memories, and sometime memories are lost with time. I don't want to forget about my friends and everything that we do. I don't want my friendship to become nothing but a memory. Because without them, my life would just be a blank piece of paper wanting to be colored. 

June 18, 2011. I began to read my year book comments and the Book. I was reading them in my car and that's when I stop and I cry. I cry because I realize that it all has end. I cry because I don't want all of this to be over. I cry simple because I've said goodbye. I know that that will not be the last time I met with my friends, but realizing that I've said goodbye and not knowing when will we meet again, saddens me. So I cried.

I guess the reason why I am writing this is to say a proper goodbye. 

"Oh clock, just stop for a second
I still see the kid inside the mirror
I'm all grown up, moving on
life feels short, it used to feel long
the flying birds, reminds me
that sometimes we have to go

Goodbye, don't change a thing
I promise, I'll be back someday
I'll miss you, please don't fade away
don't fade away."

-David Choi, Don't Fade Away

Dear friends,

Know that I'm not letting go of anything, of any memories or any friendship. Please know that it has been my greatest honor and privilege to be your friend, and I shall never forget about you and I shall forever be grateful for a friend like you to be in my life.

Till we meet again,

Hugs and kisses,

ALJ