A Perfectly Lonely New Year's Eve

So as the year comes to an ending, I come to a realization that life really goes by and time doesn't stop for anybody. I used to have the perfect New Year's Eve plans, but somehow life decided that it just won't happen this year.

I'm ending this year the way I started this very year.

Alone.

You might think that it's kind of pathetic but trust me it isn't. Sure it does bother me the fact that I'm not doing anything fancy right now. Last year, I was in the midst of stranger in Bali and I am now at my cousin's house, catching up with the Big Bang Theory that I've missed (along with How I Met Your Mother and Modern Family) *God, I love these series, making my own homemade pizza, and writing this blog. I'm sure many of my friends are hanging out doing who knows what, but somehow I like this solitude. 

This silent moment, in this silent house with the drops of rain (yes, apparently, listening to John Mayer while it's raining make me a poet), made me introspect myself. This year is really a roller coaster of feelings, especially as the year comes to an end. Emotions and events that literally change me.

Memories?
 I've got tons this year (:

Any regrets?

“I don’t really believe in having regrets; it’s just not really in my mindset. ‘Oh, if you could have done it differently, would you?’ It’s like, that doesn’t even occur to me. I’m here, and this is where I am, and I’m just living it. You’ve only got one life.” -Emma Watson

Strangely, I am looking forward to next year. I've got so much ahead of me. The national exams, university life, hopefully an internship abroad, and many more unexpected stuff that life's going to give me.

What do I think about this year?
It was:

• AWESOME
• UNBELIEVABLE 
• SURPRISING
• BEAUTIFUL
• LIFE-CHANGING
• ROLLER COASTER OF EMOTIONS
• LONELY, BUT STILL AWESOME

Here's to end this year of 2012:

Perfectly Lonely

John Mayer

Had a little love, but I spread it thin 
Falling in her arms and out again 
Made a bad name for my game 'round town 
Tore out my heart, shut it down
Nothing to do, nowhere to be 
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do, no one but me  
And that's all I need
I'm perfectly lonely
I see my friends around from time to time  
When their ladies let 'em slip away 
And when they ask me how I'm doin' with mine  
This is always what I say
Nothing to do, nowhere to be  
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do, no one to be 
Is it really hard to see why
I'm perfectly lonely
'Cause I don't belong to anyone, nobody belongs to me
And this is not to say there never comes a day I'll take my chances and start again 
And when I look behind on all my younger times 
I'll have to thank the wrongs that led me to a love so strong
'Cause I don't belong to anyone, and nobody belongs to me

Perfectly Lonely- John Mayer

Kisses for 2012 and hello 2013

Grateful for this year,

-Audrey L.J.