The Mess

When you think that your life is good, life knocks you down and said otherwise.

What do you do when your whole life is a mess? Wait, let me change the question.What do you do when all of a sudden life turns you inside out and left you with the mess it made?

Sometimes you just wanna run away.

Probably a stupid question, but this is something that we might face in our life. One day you think that things are getting better, and the next day things turn 180 from bad to worst. Want some reasons?

Here some:

1. THE PEEP
Say that there is this "someone" that every body likes but has no clue that everybody likes this person. Let's call this person A. So A is very much liked by people and just can't stop sticking around you. It might seem that they can't live without you. You tried your very best to put on a sincere smile and just try to get over the day with A. Suppose you are at your worst day and A is there (like always) for you. You are feeling dumb in physics class and this A who you clearly HAD NO PROBLEM WITH  just happen to keep on asking you stuff. And when you left the class, A cleans up for your mess.
Truth: this is what happened to me today and as sweet as that may sound, I don't really like it. Of course, I acted out of my current emotions (which by the way are not in a good way) and now I feel terribly guilty. Well, if there's something I can do to change how I feel about A, I honestly would. As for right now, I think its better if I stay away from her... if ever that is possible. *God, I pray A doesn't read my blog.

This picture is dedicated to A

I'm so sorry if I am mean, but there's no way I'm hiding it anymore.

2. THE I-DON'T-KNOW-WHAT'S-WRONG PERSON
Okay. Long story short, I am now stuck with a person, by no means is stubborn that for no reason (that I know of) this person does not want to talk to me. It's was all OKAY in the beginning, and frankly it was actually good. But things just change in a snap of a finger and wow...we're not a complete stranger to each other. First, it pissed me off. and honestly, that's just it. I'M PISSED OFF not because this person is not talking to me, but because I have no idea what is wrong and what's going on. Plus this person and I has something that needed to be done. Not praying for things to be GREAT but just OKAY IS ENOUGH FOR ME. I tried but there is no respond and I'm tired of trying so if this what this person wants, then congratulation, you've won your way.

If you think this person is a lovey-dovey of mine, I hate to break the news but you are wrong.

3. THE TRAFFIC

This is how I feel in traffic

For some of you that do not know, I live in Jakarta and my school is located at the west end of it in Lippo Karawaci and let me tell you one thing about Jakarta, THE TRAFFIC IS FANTASTIC! Where else would you find a 2 hour traffic for no reason??? It's just great with the fact that I am terrible hungry, but you  know everything is nice when it is in traffic. NOT.

A BEAUTIFUL MESS?
Jason Mraz says that it's a beautiful mess, but honestly right now, I don't think that there is any beauty in my life. Well, may be there is sparks of beauty. Life is funny, in a way. Just as I wrote this down, I think of the little cute things that happened today, like teaching my friends physics (and they actually understand), reading my friends blog. It made me think....

May be underneath all these ugly mess,
Life might be a beautiful mess after all.

Audrey 2012


ps: I found this picture and figure to share with you. LOVE THE COLORS! :]

Macaroons *hearts