Something that I learn

Hari ini bener-bener berbeda dari hari lainnya karena jujur aja gw belajar begitu banyak hal yang bener-bener wow. Untuk pertama gw sadar kalo it's okay to be wrong. Selama ini sering banget gw takut ngelakuin kesalahan. Takut komentar orang-orang.

Tapi, at the end of the day, it's about me doing what I want, learning things my way. 

Salah itu wajar dan buat salah bukan sesuatu yang memalukan. Justru kita bisa belajar lebih banyak dari kesalahan itu.Kita semua mulai dari dasar. Kita mau ngejar mimpi juga semua mulai dari yang paling bawah and when you're starting from zero, you've got nothing to lose. Nga ada yang harus di takutin. Namanya juga baru nyoba, kalo nga bisa ya coba yang lain. 

In the end, it's about seizing the moment; carpe diem. It's about taking chances, and breaking free from all the fears. It's about living in this life. 

Am still learning, 

Aodre

Last day being 16

Damn, still can't believe my life as a 16 years old will end soon, in  matter of minutes. By now, my life as 16 has been colored with many many interesting things. From publicly embarrassing myself, to silent tears, to crazy laughter, to songs, and yes numerous stupid things. I can't stop to think what a mess I might look like, but truth is, I don't care.

There are ups and downs this year. Life truly is a roller coaster but it sure is one hell of a good ride. And honestly, I can't wait for 17 to start.Wish me luck

Almost 17,
Aodre

Just Some Awesome Things and Some Random Things

Today, out of the many days is somewhat great!

Here's some reason why:

1. I did some work (like real work) at this place called 99. Just as a food runner. For people who don't know what a food runner is, look it up online. Kidding :p Food runner is basically a person who give the food from the kitchen to the table or to the waitress.

My first day, it was kinda great. I get to hear all this confusing menu, and actually give the wrong order for the customer. Met some great people. But the problem is that I don't know what I'll be back working there. My timing kinda sucks.

2. Cece's 17th party. Well, it's a party and you know how it is ;) Just some pics

3. and last goes to my cousin, KRISTI. She really made my day! and here's why:

 

my cousin has a weird and yet very random sense of humor. She really made my day.

but I really want to close today with something that I read from Paulo Coelho blog: he wrote,

"We may think at times that the only thing life offers us tomorrow, is to repeat everything we did today. But if we pay close attention, we will see that no two days are alike.
Each morning brings a hidden blessing; a blessing which is unique to that day, and which cannot be kept or re-used. If we do not use this miracle today, it will be lost."

I don't know what's got into me, but this really strikes me hard. All these time I've kept thinking about how I should be more active in my social life and just have some fun. I've been ALWAYS THINKING, but never did anything. But today, well I kinda did something different. To be honest, some of the things I did today was completely out of the blue and today's just the start. No time for sulking around. No time for complaining. Just live and well, be as crazy as you wanted to be. I live with another resolution, to make the best use of everyday of my life. To take chances and just live. 

Good night world, 

Drey.

Monday Jackpot

Don't you just "love" Mondays?  Who doesn't? It's where brute reality ruins our good weekend. It's back to waking up early and do our regular stuff. 

I like to refer myself to Garfield. Yes, that fat, lazy, and horrible cute cat who, like me, dread Monday. It's kinda like we have an agreement with Monday, they don't mess with us, we don't mess with them. But unfortunately for me, it doesn't work like that. Today is a "WONDERFUL MONDAY" 

I mean seriously, I woke up with a major headache and a stadium four stomachache, I lost my school tie, which frankly made me look like a rebel, and my phone got confiscated. Oh! but that's not the end, you see. Later on, I had this physics quiz, which believe me is the most accursed physics question I ever did. Quite a list, huh?

But something came through my mind as I (strangely) laugh at the situation. Nicholas Sparks once said:

"Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can."

Some might say that it's just psychological thing, but may be it worth the try. I mean seriously, I don't want any day to be like this ever again. Overall, this is quite a silly mistake. A stupid one I should say, but nothing's gonna bring me down. I would like to think it this way, when bad luck had their time, surely good luck will follow. And while that's going to happen, I'm going to start to always look on the bright side of life. Time's too precious to be wasted like that.

 So let's just smile and enjoy the life we have :]

 xoxo, Aodre

S

Different Fate

Are you tired of feeling like you're always number two? Are you tired of feeling that nothing is ever good enough, that your best is just good? Are you so freaking tired of being compared, even if it was you yourself who compare you with others? Me too, friend. I am tired with all of those but you know what I realize today? 

I realize that comparing myself is just shits I made as an excuse to feel bad. Weird-much? Yes, but it is also true. When it comes to comparison, we always feel like we are being bullied. Questions like, "Why do they have to compare me?" or "Can't you just appreciate my effort?" flies around our head every second of those trials. It seems that all those effort and even sacrifices that we made are just a waste if energy and we began to feel bad about it. Soon, we get used to all those comparison that we became immune toward it...or so it seems. Facts: the more we are being compared, the more we doubt about our own capability and slowly but sure, we are going to live our life in doubts.

Truth is I have been living my life in doubt. There was never a second when I really am just happy for who I am. There is always that voice inside my head that told me that I was not good enough. There were whispers in my head that says, "Look at that girl. She has everything a pretty face, a fair hair, a brilliant mind, a loving family. So different from you right?" And worst is when I hear myself saying that may be I am destined to be in the background, being as invisible as I can, that way, I think I'll be happier.

What a crap I think right? It has never been any truer that we all deserve a spotlight of our own. we deserve to be our own superstar. We ROCK in every single way and we should never forget about that. People will never stop comparing us with others but we can stop comparing ourselves. What other says matters so little compare to what we think about us. Today, I make a change. I am standing tall with my chin up, embracing and loving who I am with all my flaws. I will still make better changes in my life, but for what is worth, I will never change who I am inside. Yes, other people might have nicer hair than I do, or even a better life but their life is not mine. And I love mine, with every problem, every dramas, every issue; with everything in it. 

The best part: I am never alone. One of the most amazing thing about being a teenager is having all the great best friends in my life to help me and listen to all my ramblings and issues and anger and everything else. If life is a deadly roller coaster, they made the ride worth the fun and worth the time. They'll be the one who will slap me right in the face and bring me back to the truth that I am worth it. Without them, I guess I wouldn't make it this far, and I am forever grateful to have all those people in my life.Happy Friendship Day, Friends.

Your Friend,

A.L.J

Lost Touch

Word of the day: lost touch.

Definition: it's something you say when you have no more connection toward it. It's the disconnection from someone toward somebody else or something. 

Why I remember this word?

Because it appear to me that I have lost touch of something that has been a part of me. 

The effect:  it really create this hole in me.

Truth: it feels like I had just been into a terrible accident I lost my memory. I know that something is missing but I don't know how to gain it back. 

Is it sad?

More than I could explain...

Is it bad?

I can barely survive the thought of it...

Is it the end?

I just hope that it wouldn't have to end that way...

It's like losing a part of you and you found yourself being lost in the middle of no where. Like all cases of amnesia, no one knows when those missing part will be back, or will ever be back but I want it to be back, so that I won't be lost like I am now. So that I could have those ability to do what I like.

 picture taken from tumblr

I am going away for a couple of days. Away from people, away from here to clear my thoughts, to reflect my life, and to hope that everything's going to be okay. 

Catching my breath,

ALJ

Looking out the Window

Everyday I see people forcing a smile in their face as they pass each window car in the traffic light. Most people would just wave away those people away from their cars. Sometime, I did that too. Ignoring the obvious pain that they are experiencing. Little did we know and little did we care about the sadness that lies beneath those face. We veiled ourselves from seeing the reflection of misery through their eyes. We seems to overlook the imprinted sweat in their shirts. And so my heart grief for humanity for there is no more decency that could be found among us. 

I was in my car when I realize the sadness in people's eyes and how they are just plainly trying to survive life. It moves me to see how people are forced to be in a situation that they are in now just because they have no other options. They've tried but nothing seems to work and now they just live to work day by day hoping that someday this might all be better. 

This remind me of an excerpt from the Life of Pi by Yann Martel. "The life of wild animal is simple, noble, and meaningful. Then it is captures by wicked men and thrown into ring jails. Its "happiness" is dashed. It yearns mightily for 'freedom' and does all it can to escape. Being denied its 'freedom' for too long, the animal becomes a shadow of itself, its spirit broken."

Pardon the comparison, but it is true. People's happiness are constantly taken away from them. Happiness might now just be a memory.  Before they work for the community. Before they have no problem in fulfilling their families needs. Before everything is working well. Before they were happy... People are forced into labors because they are trap in the world where money comes first. In fact, we all are trap in a materialistic world. 

 

Is money wrong? No...I guess it's our fault for letting it goes too far. But let's not give up on faith, there's still tomorrow to hope for. We might not be able to do any sort of big things right now, but we live and we learn to fix the problem that we've created so that tomorrow will be a better day especially for them.

From the other side of the window,

ALJ